Jealously Is Unattractive 

“Jealousy is an ugly emotion, but it tells the truth. You mostly envy those who have what you desire.” – Susan Cain 

Let’s talk about this thing called jealously. Jealously is a natural emotion. Wither you envy someone relationship, material items or whatever. Yes. It’s okay to get jealous, but I’m a firm believer that you have to control your emotions. You might peep something you didn’t want to see, admire someone lifestyle, or hear stuff that makes you feel smaller to whom or whatever you’re comparing yourself too, but at no given time should you lash out at a individual. While it’s okay to get jealous, you have to learn how to swallow that pill. By not controlling your emotions you can permanently damage your relationship(s) with the people around you over something that’s so petty. Rant over. 

I’m just tired……

I’m so emotionally exhausted and tired of life and its disappointments.
I’ve always been someone who’s tried to keep a positive outlook on life and I’ve been trying really hard to feel happy, keeping myself active, always trying to help others and trying to be a good person. But I always feel like I never get back anything and I’m always left hurt and alone. I’m just tired. I’m tired of not being able to find anyone that understands me, someone that actually listens or cares about me. I’m tired of life always disappointing me in one way or another, it seems like I always attract drama in my life and I never go looking for it.

Spent a lot of time chasing a degree, now that I have a job w/ it  starting to feel like it’s something I’m never really wanted

I’m so tired of life, of everything.

I’m breathing – not living..
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Grad School Probs Vol. 2


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Passing The Torch: Mentoring The Younger Generation

It seems like the older you get the faster life moves, and if you get busy you can lose track of that time. Sometimes I really have to sit down and tell myself that I’m 26 years old. Most of the times, I honestly feel like I’m not over 25, and that can be from everyone telling me I don’t look older than 22. When we are young we often to look up to others for answers, which usually a role model, or a mentor. A mentor can be someone you know or don’t know personally. The question is: How do you react when you become that certain role model to someone?

For those that don’t know, I work full time in a lab helping Dr. Bennett and sometimes helping other Dr’s with their current research at the uni. A job that I landed around August of last year. At the same time, I’m attending grad school. Between working with individuals with a higher education level and grad school studies I’m just trying to absorb everything I can from them. Recently, I’ve been assigned two undergrads to follow me as part of their internship. The realization hit me pretty quick. I didn’t get a say so about these two, but now I’m the source they’re looking to sponge information from about their careers. Dr. Bennett ask me how it was going, and for the most part it’s been pretty smooth. I never been in a mentor position in a field that means everything to me. Then there’s my little sub section in my Army National Guard unit. Recently, I received a positive counseling statement for going “beyond” my duties to help new soldiers in the unit. It’s something I take pride in knowing that I can help others with my experience. For others out there you may have to obtain this role much earlier than I had too. You may come from a household that required you to grow up quickly because of certain circumstances.

Whatever the situation, it’s natural for us to slide into the roles whether it’s welcomed or not. We should all strive to be a positive influence to somebody. You may hear athletes or someone say being a role model isn’t in their job description and that’s true, but you hold the power to change someone outlook on life. A small speech here, or attendance there can change someone you interact with for the better. A small amount of your time can make a difference. It may just even mold you to being a better person. The most precious resource is another living being. They have the capacity to become our future doctors, lawyers, etc. No matter what background they come form.

As a researcher, it’s reality that we may never see the fruition of our current research. It’s a selfless community. I will most likely won’t be alive to reap the benefits of a world where we can grow any organ, transradial prosthesis that functions like a real limb, treatments that allow the disabled to be able again, and the science to boost the human lifespan to 100+ years. Like the older guys here, I will do what I can and mentor the young, and pass the torch for them to continue when I’m not able too. As people, we should carry the same selfless attitude. Help others find their way. One day they might be that doctor, and may surpass you in terms of financial wealth, but to me you will receive something more valuable than money. You helped someone that is now taking care of a community.

So whether it’s your kids, cousin, coworker, community, or a nation just know that someone is watching you. They may not tell you, but your actions can dictate how they form as a person.

Trying to be a better son

Usually, nothing keeps me up at night, but that wasn’t the case last night. What kept me up is the realization that my relationship with my parents is much non existent. Lemme explain.

Growing up, I never really spent time with them. After school I was always by a friend’s house, or chilling with one of my cousins. There was allot of days I didn’t talk to them about my day. My parents had a mentality of “I’m not your friend, I’m your parent.” As long as I got my shit done in school, etc, they weren’t on my back about stuff, so we never really bonded. They allowed me to do whatever that made me happy at the time. We hardly ever do things as a family. Last year I tried to get everyone to go on a family vacation during Thanksgiving, but yeah that didn’t happen. I feel like I can’t tell them anything without getting a lecture. That’s why I wasn’t excited to tell them I was going to Italy, or moving to Austin, TX. My mom and I don’t have meaningful conversations. We just share funny emails back and forth. My dad and I have made leaps and bounds in our relationship, and I’m so thankful for it. What really hit it off is when I graduated, and he told me I was the hardest worker in the family at the time and he was proud of me for getting a degree in bio engineering. I have him to thanks for my interest in science. He still working at lockhead building the orion space capsules. He previously worked on the big orange fuels tanks for the shuttles. We would always talk heavily on what went on, and the future tect, etc.

My parents are amazing people. I envy them heavily. I will never forget that when my dad was laid off after the shuttle disaster, he sold his favorite motorbike just so we could have a stupid game for Christmas. I was too young to understand it at the time. My mom spoiled the shit out of me with material things, but I never really opened up to her even to this day. I envy their relationship. They have been together for 29 years now. Always doing cute shit to keep the excitement going.

I literally have the best parents in the world, and I need to take advantage of it.

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Dance God’s be with me…

Tonight is the night. The white and red tux is ready to go. My body is ready, and hopefully my mind will be too… Jamie and I been taking ball room dancing lessons to learn a routine, so I wouldn’t be a total noob at it when we have the floor. Jamie is pretty much a pro, so I’m excited to show her how far I came.

Confession time… You know when you see a black guy at a party, or whatever gathering and you just say to yourself “I bet that mofo can dance.” Then he proceeds to dance like Elaine from Seinfeld. Yeah.. I’m that black guy, but not tonight! It’s kinda funny that me and Jamie swap when it comes to racial sterotypes. She’s the white girl that can dance effortlessly. I just try and keep up. Anyways, I’m excited. Tonight I’ll be cha cha’n into those panties.

What Women need to understand about Men.

By the end of this post ladies hopefully you have a better understatement about men. Just like you guys have certain traits, so do we. Lets divulge

The Guy Code

There’s obvious strict dos and don’t that we will never violate. We don’t sleep around with our friends family member, keep our friends infidelities a secret, and whenever there’s a fight we back each other up. The problem is that women don’t understand how we can stick with our buddies even if we don’t agree with the morality of an judgment. There’s no judgment in the guy code.

The need to fix things

“Call Mike the mechanic? Hell no! I can’t fix this!… Mkay. Don’t believe me, just watch!” I’m a total bio nerd. I work in a lab for a living, but whenever something breaks it gives me an opportunity to whip out my toolbox or whatever I need to fix whatever broken. It’s just in a mans DNA. If we cannot fix it we call our bros over, brainstorm, and work while knocking back beers. It’s a male bonding experience, it’s just something we do. Again, the need to fix things just runs through our veins.

Fart Humor

I don’t get why we find farting situations hilarious, but we just do. Instead on rolling the windows down in the car we roll them up and make everyone in the car suffer.

Constantly Adjusting Our Junk

Everthing is moving around down there. Depending on the underwear our junk is chafing, pinching, and squeezing. So please… Pleeaassseee spare us from the disgusting looks or your eye rolls. You don’t have to live with big ass dick and balls.


I don’t get why women haven’t hopped on the sandwich train yet. They’re sandwiches! With unlimited sandwich combos! How?! How you ladies are not crazy about them?!

Destined To Be Grill Gods

You’re not a man until you can BBQ or grilling something with with grade A proficiency. Just like women may pass down recipes from generation to generation. Men pass this down to their sons. It’s enjoyable. Stand around the grill knocking back beer talking about oh well the meat is cooking with your guy friends around.

We like getting treated from time to time

As men I fell like majority of the time were making plans for dates, etc, etc. However, I can tell you it’s really appreciated when a girl tell us. My girlfriend Jamie told me “Hey I date night Saturday night. Dress casual. See your cute ass soon.” I was completely shocked! She even gave me flowers for that night. It’s rare, but just know it’s definitely appreciated and it’s a great idea introduce your man to something that you’re into. Also, trust me your man will most likely brag to your boys about it. Shit my girl brought me flowers and shit and took me out. What your girl doing?

Why we can’t ask for help.

Just like the reason we believe we can fix things. We can do anything and work through any problem. We just need some more time.

Holding on to certain objects.

As men there’s item that we refuse to replace. Like our favorite wallet, boots/shoes, watches, and even down to out comfortable holy underwear. So please ladies don’t try to understand. Just let us do us in this department.

Video Games

Ladies you may think they’re childish and we should grow up, but hear me out. I understand that you may not want to play COD, Destiny, GTAV, 2k, Madden or whatever with us for hours straight. A lot of guys don’t like to sit around watching movies or shows for end on end. Games combine our love of action, adventure with out love of competition. This is something you just have to let go.

Why we hate shopping so much

It’s annoying, boring, and expensive. Yes you look pretty. Yes that dress makes your hips/ass look perfect. Yes that new push up bra will push your boobs right in front of your face. CAN WE JUST PLEASE GO!

The Toilet Seat

We honestly try to remember to put the toilet seat down ladies we really do, but we’re on autopilot when urinating. I’m truly really sorry babe that you got your butt wet because you tried to use the bathroom in the middle of the night, and the seat was up.