“Jealousy is an ugly emotion, but it tells the truth. You mostly envy those who have what you desire.” – Susan Cain
Let’s talk about this thing called jealously. Jealously is a natural emotion. Wither you envy someone relationship, material items or whatever. Yes. It’s okay to get jealous, but I’m a firm believer that you have to control your emotions. You might peep something you didn’t want to see, admire someone lifestyle, or hear stuff that makes you feel smaller to whom or whatever you’re comparing yourself too, but at no given time should you lash out at a individual. While it’s okay to get jealous, you have to learn how to swallow that pill. By not controlling your emotions you can permanently damage your relationship(s) with the people around you over something that’s so petty. Rant over.
(About to steal your girl. I look sexy af in my lab coat)
I don’t do these types of blogs as much as I should be. Definitely, the way you guys been there for me on this crazy ride. Just want to tell you guys thank you! Thanks for all the love and support. There’s a lot of you guys that been following ever since I was on YouTube. That was 7yrs ago! Then moved with me when I transitioned to twitch. This spring, I left twitch because I graduated and got a full time job to support me, my crossfit goals and social life leaves little to no time for games. Now I’m back just to blogging and I’m still getting love from the same people 7yrs ago with additional new faces!
Turning the chapter on being a content creator for youtube or live streaming from twitch was bitter sweet. You guys and I knew that there was a bigger goal I was reaching. I wanted to see what my life would look like if I didn’t count the cost and willing to go further than what anybody willing do to from my community. You guys helped me do that. Being from country ass Lacombe, Louisiana it wasn’t cool to be smart and be heavily into any science. During exchanging emails, videos while I was a youtuber you guys in stilled the attitude of “fuck them, I have to do what makes me happy.” Once I start doing that I started to blow up. Not just in my academics, but as a content creator, streamer, friend, and as a lover. You guys gave me that kick start to follow my passions and not to harm but don’t take no shit either.
Almost a year ago, I was having a quater of a century life crises. Didn’t help that I lost my best friend Brandon this year to a hit and run. As always, you guys came in as extra support and dragged me out of my mess. This year as I make 26 in December has the total opposite feel to it. I’m not stressed thinking about what I’m going to do with my life, holding on to hatred or fighting people to stay in my life. It’s a eerie calmness that I haven’t felt since 5+ years. My life feels complete. I feel whole.
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Hopefully, when I help find a cure for cancer I can put you all in my memoir when im old and grey. To tell my story that you can find strength to accomplish great things from people you never personally met. As always I’m here you too. You can email me at Jinxedsanctuary@gmail.com or follow me on Twitter @AnoleCreole i follow everyone back so you can DM me privately. I’m always catching myself answering emails or DMs at 2am in the morning. I truly enjoy it. Love you guys.
[ Rosilia ( ro-zah-LEE-ah ) ]
One night during the week about a month ago around 10pm, I get a text “I’m in your city! Get out your bed you french fucker and let’s go eat something.” I didn’t recognize the number, but there’s only like 3 people that have the privilege to call me a “french fucker.” Immediately, I called the number to find out it was my old band mate Rosilia! Told her to come to downtown to my place and I will cook something up. Boom! Friends reunited
Rosilia is a laid back lesbian w/ a wicked sense of humor. The last time I saw her is when she moved to go live with her girl friend. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out, so she kinda restarting her life. She didn’t have to place to go, so I took her in to live with me in my downtown apartment rent free. I was planning on turning my 2nd bedroom to my red room of pain, but that have to wait now. I’m just kidding, or am I? Recently, she just got hired near a clothing store and I can’t say enough on how happy I am to have a childhood friend back in my life. Will we restart the band for old times sake? Highly unlikely, but maybe…. just maybe