To summarize my experience from January 2017 is “that your goals are so close, but every bump in the road cause it to reach out further.” Every time I get close of getting a 2nd place in New Orleans, something always falls through. When trying to get a promotion, I fell short. As a NCO, I believed I have failed my junior soldiers at times. It has been failure and failure and setback after setback.
It’s been quite frustrating really, at times I really don’t know what to because of everything going bad at once and I’m just trying to micro manage everything trying to fix everything. Then I have to worry about my job duties after that.
With all of that being said, January have sucked for me. Hopefully, shit don’t roll down hill and February will be a better month for me. We shall see.
January hasn’t been kind to me at all 😂 so I went into good year praying that all I had to get done was a alignment. Come to find out my right control arm is bent, so something that I thought was just going to cost $105 is now $621.51 😭😭😭
I guess that’s why I went to college to make the big bucks, but what a inconvenience.
“Jealousy is an ugly emotion, but it tells the truth. You mostly envy those who have what you desire.” – Susan Cain
Let’s talk about this thing called jealously. Jealously is a natural emotion. Wither you envy someone relationship, material items or whatever. Yes. It’s okay to get jealous, but I’m a firm believer that you have to control your emotions. You might peep something you didn’t want to see, admire someone lifestyle, or hear stuff that makes you feel smaller to whom or whatever you’re comparing yourself too, but at no given time should you lash out at a individual. While it’s okay to get jealous, you have to learn how to swallow that pill. By not controlling your emotions you can permanently damage your relationship(s) with the people around you over something that’s so petty. Rant over.
Well the last 48 hours have been interesting enough. I let one of my friends borrow my car. When I got it back, a little piece of the tire was missing, part of my rim was scratch, and my alignment was off. Now yes I understand that sometimes shit happens, but let me go further into this situation. The condition of my friend borrowing my car is that everyone he had to use it just text that he was grabbing it and about what time I would have it back incase something comes up on my end. Well he couldn’t do even that. I woke up from a nap and my car was gone. Within the day he took my vehicle 4 times in which he never notified me he was doing so. Well apparently the damage was done on his 2nd trip, and of course he did not notify me.
He told me about the damage when I was walking to my car, and he tried to downplay so much just by telling the rim was only scratch. Ugh. Whatever. But when I got into my car and start driving then I knew my alignment was completely fucked up. I call him to confront him about and then he told me like oh yeah by the way it’s a little off.
Needless to say, I won’t be letting him or anybody use my shit. Unfortunately, it’s just too common that people these days have so much little respect for you and your property. And the worst thing is…… Dude didn’t even put gas in my car.
Lesson has been reinforced. Nobody is borrowing my shit.
If you’ve followed my blog then you would know I live in downtown Austin, TX. Recently, I’ve been looking for another my second space. I’ve been trying to look at a couple of places in New Orleans since it’s really close to my family, and when I’m not there I could just rent it out to people. Of course it’s hard to shop for property when you’re not in the city looking at it yourself.
Anyways, my friend that lives in the area agreed to help me out, but she’s killing me right now. As of today, she missed a couple of appointments that I arranged after I asked her if it was okay and didn’t conflict with her schedule. Some appointments she went on she totally forgot to take pictures or video of the inside. It’s so confusing because this individual seemed so squared away that I would’ve never thought that we would have these problems.
At this point, I could find someone else but I’m just tired of all of this and have the mindset of if you want to do something right you have to do it yourself. I think we can all relate to people that said they had our backs or will do something, but short change you so much you’re just like wtf.
First of all, I apologize for my absence. Last year I hardly blogged any, I would say I was just busy with life. But truth isI do a lot of my blogging at night, and I like to be in bed by nine because I have to get up and work at 5 o’clock in the morning. I will just not have the energy to sit in front of a laptop and type away, let alone trying to gather my thoughts to write something effective.but I’m going to do is use the speech to text thing and hopefully be able to give me my thoughts without rambling too much.
What I want to talk today is about dreams. I fortunately can say I’ve reached my dream being 28 yrs old on this Earth. Everybody does it, but some people gave up dreaming. Saying dreams are exactly that, dreams. Somewhere along their journey, life dealt them a bad card. In which, halt them or maybe even stop them in their tracks. It sucks talking to these people. I’m the kinda person that want to see everyone achieve what they want because this world is harsh, but yet can be so beautiful and we only guaranteed one shot at this called life.
Majority of those people say they’re a product of their environment, and that’s why they won’t ever reach their dreams. For example, being a African American I can understand how our youth can get wrapped in what’s mainstream. Trying to reach a lifestyle only the %1 get a chance to enjoy, and they get all caught up with gang banging and drug dealing and before they know they’re 18 and get locked up. Let’s fast forward 10 years later. This kid is now 28 and he took his gf on a romantic city air tour. The man finally get a taste of something he wants to do, but wait he can’t because let’s be honest no one is going to hire a pilot with a record. Now I’m not saying that he didn’t deserve the charges. The law is the law. I just hate how people dreams are tarnish before they can even get a chance to realize what their dreams are and work towards them. With all of that being said I do believe there’s a lot of truth behind that quote.
I grew up in a small town of Lacombe, Louisiana. My environment was a country upbringing. I was a bayou boy. I’ll spend all my extra time fishing, hunting, exploring the woods if I wasn’t at school or at football practice. I mentor young kids from the inner city, and at times of course it’s hard for me to relate. I just do my best and always try too tell these kids it’s so important to go out of their environment and see something new. Spend money that they have on adventures, and different stuff that interest them.
What do you dream about? And how that’s going for you? Also, do you believe in that you’re a product of your environment?
This is a crappie post. Lol. But I need to start posting regularly again.
You know, a lot of times I don’t really get to appreciate the outdoors. I’m usually in a lab, working on some kind of research for 12hrs then head back into the city. One of the many things I love about the guard that it takes me out of that element. I’m a researcher on the civilian side, but a CBRNE Scout on the weekends and other actual orders when called up for active duty. The point I’m trying to make is that if you’re someone like me that’s always in a city environment, get out more. Don’t have to join the Army lol but go hiking, kayaking, camping, do something, and appreciate the beauty that we sometimes taker for granted.